I am burdened and blessed with the pain of feel..

 Feel

I am burdened and blessed with the pain of feel...
I am choosing to sit and remain in this real.

We run from the deep, refusing to look more than a stride...
holding our own power to remain in pride...

I get it.
To sit and feel and watch and peel...
And the longer you run from humanity real...
the deeper the wound and infection to steal.

I know it hurts.
I am so sorry that it hurts.

Maybe that’s why, when a newborn child is born,
the first instinct is to cry—our first real emotion
released from inside.

In the womb, shielded by warmth, floating in fluid,
cushioned from gravity and all the uncomfortable
senses that make a human feel...
I could imagine—if they could speak—their first word
might be interpreted as “OUCH.”
Everything hurts.
What is this feel?

Then comes adaptation...
to the pain, the discomfort of a strange new world... of feel.

And then—a gentle, warm embrace.
A soothing voice to appeal:
“There, there... I know it hurts.
I know it’s scary.
I know exactly how you feel.
But I’m here.
Don’t you worry.
You are safe. You are loved.
And it’s going to be ok.”

The reality of it all is that
it’s not even that warm for us all.
But nevertheless, we are all born into a cruel and painful existence.
Some just meet it sooner than others.
And no matter how much love we have surrounding us...
it’s still going to hurt.

But we continue to adapt.
We grow—even that hurts—
and we try desperately to find our safe spaces...
in people, places, and things.

I do want you to know:
it will be hard to find those spaces sometimes.
But you will always find them in God the Father who loves you.
And He is RIGHT there with YOU.

He Himself came down to earth as a baby to feel what we feel.
I believe He wanted to truly understand what it is to be human—
to experience this condition of FEEL.
And I surely believe He did.

His heart took compassion
on our surviving existence.
For real.

The highest form of divinity and humanity
is the ability to feel and not shrink away—
and then to stand in the place of another
for the mere gain of understanding their pain.

Who does that?
Who wants to do that?
"OUCH."

Nonetheless, if you don’t...
and you may not believe this...
but if you don’t...
the pain will hurt worse.

Eventually, the pain becomes numb to your own heart.
And then... you begin to hurt others.
And no longer realize the apathy
that has now controlled your humanity.

It doesn’t take a strong or courageous person to feel.
And yet—
when you do—
the act itself invites you into a divinity and humanity
that will strengthen and encourage
the weakest hearts.

"In our weakness, He is made strong."

In a world ever seeking its own,
higher and higher to places unknown...
I invite you to come sit for a while and feel.

Find your humanity.
And yes—it will hurt.
For real.

But lay down your burdens
and lean into the One...
who made our beings to be held by the Sun.

If you are hurting... it’s ok.
I hurt too.

Allow yourself to sit and remember:
you have been adapting for a very long time now.
And that’s tiring.

Give yourself rest.
Accept that it hurts.
You don’t need to harden to exist.
Feel your humanity once again—and breathe.

You are not alone.
You are not the only one.

What makes us human,
and keeps us human...
is to feel.

It will be hard.
But I believe we can do this—
together.

“His mercies are new every morning.”
You can begin again. Over and over again.

You don’t need to be perfect.
Or accomplished.
Or rich.

When you understand that you already are...
just because you exist...

I love you.
Always and forever.

Keep going.
I’m right here.
It’s time to Feelnation.

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